The entire situation has made me think a lot about liberty and especially intellectual freedom. It would seem to me that there is a contingent of persons who desire to silence opposing viewpoints on the forums. This contingent feels threatened somehow and wants those opposing viewpoints expunged. What is ironic in this is that probably many, not all, of my own personal viewpoints line up much more with the contingent of persons versus the opposing viewpoints. I am an Evangelical Conservative Christian who now finds herself aligned with “them”.
This quote by Thomas Paine comes to my mind, “He that would make his own liberty secure, must guard even his enemy from opposition; for if he violates this duty he establishes a precedent that will reach himself.” This is not to say that TS or D_O or anyone else is my enemy. No way! They are my friends. But so are many from the “other side”. I straddle both camps but clearly do not feel I belong in either one. I’m just a woman stumbling my way through this life as best I can on my way to heaven. I’m nothing more, but I’ll be damned if I’ll be cast as anything less.
I love God. I love Truth. I love Freedom. I want the freedom to think for myself. I don’t want to be told how to think. I don’t need the thought police to keep me faithful, I have the Lord Jesus and the Holy Spirit for that. I refuse to walk in fear. But even more than that, I want you to be able to walk and think in freedom. Some posters have intimated that I’ve been fighting for “my rights”. Peshaw! That’s ridiculous. It isn’t true. I’ve no place there anymore except for the dear people I love and for this wee little issue that has drawn me back. I’m not fighting for me, I’m fighting for the community as a whole to retain the intellectual freedoms we’ve enjoyed for over a decade. People must realize that if the atheists and the Catholics are silenced then next it will you. That’s the way this works. The legalistic among us are never satisfied. Look to history for confirmation of this.
One question you should ask yourself is, “Would the Spanish Inquisition have been able to use a person like me?” That’s a scary thought when analyzing this situation from a sociological perspective.
I have no bone to pick. No war to fight. No further issues on the table. I don’t want a Revolution. Some have already moved on to another forum and that’s where I’ll be.
I have known for a long time now, months, that my time was ending. It has been hard because there are people who write to me and confide in me and appreciate me being there. To those people, know that I’m still here for you. Pouring your life out for your children and then having one go prodigal on you sucks! But you can survive it and thrive and flourish. I am.
Frankly, I”m just too much woman right now for that forum (that’s a joke, sort of). I want to wear high heels, and go dancing, and travel, and enjoy my marriage. I’ve moved past my grief and I”m in joy right now despite what my children do or don’t do. I”m ready to start training to climb a 14 thousand foot mountain this summer. That’s my next big project. I also need to deal with my recently diagnosed and fairly severe osteopenia. That’s a scary situation for me. I’ve watched my grandmother and now my mother literally crumble before my eyes with osteoporosis. That’s going to take up some of my time and focus. I want to write and read more. I want to invest in my friendships more now that I have the time. Having friends, really good friends, has become almost the most important thing in my life. Being a good friend is very important to me. I don’t know that I’ve always been a very good friend, but I want to be a good friend to my friends. That’s where I’m at.
Those of you who are still on the road of active parenting, God bless you and keep you. Parenting is so much harder than I imagined it would be. I thought love would be enough and I’ve learned that it is, but it isn’t. Kids have a way of thinking for themselves. Maybe that’s what’s made me so tolerant here in my old age. I really don’t know.
I want my life to mean something. I’m on the journey to discover that. God bless.